Running against time

I feel like I am running against time. Today I have been doing research and trying to gather all the necessary information in order to write this scholarly paper. I have to be able to make it in 30 pages. The case is interesting and I know it very well. It that sense I don't think it will be any problem but I realized that after I failed the first COMPS by two questions doubt grew in me to the point that I feel like a failure and the fear paralyzes me. Today I was reading an article about meditation and how to deal with doubt. From that article I wrote this mantra, "This doubt is neither me or mine. It is impersonal. It arises from cause and conditions, an it will pass with the passing or those causes and conditions." I will make sure to meditate around this mantra and I will continue on. I know in my heart that I don't lack the capacity to this, my God, I have two Masters, I know that I can, but is that fear the one that instills doubt in me and I have to fight it because I only have two more months.
I have to remind myself to breath because I am noticing that at times I am not even breathing, then I bring myself back to the zafu (meditation cushion) and I feel at peace.

Goodbye,

Iberiana